Where'd I get this idea that stability and security is a thing? That I should freak out because I don't have the next 6 months all planned out with confirmed, guaranteed project income?
Responsibility, I get. Yeah, you can't just wing it and expect your family to have a smooth go of things. I'm not talking about adulting. I'm talking about being present, right here, right now. At the dinner table. In the grocery line. On the sidewalk chatting with neighbors. Lying in bed next to my spouse. This is life and there is no cliche guarantee of anything except that we get one shot.
As a child I was always leaning into the future, desperate for more freedom and access to privileges. Always in a hurry to grow up. Always seeing a future that was better. Did that become a habit? When is it okay to stop leaning and just stand?
Right now. That's when.
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