Confession: I went on a trip to Utah and my whole routine got mashed. I haven't entered a post since January 22nd. BUT! I did make notes along the way, capturing thoughts and ideas, SOOOO....I will use those to back-construct those missing entries. That's not cheating.
Mashing up a routine is something I love -- I get stale very easily. Treadmills are NOT my thing. So the change of scenery and getting to see the face of a dear friend and meet her fun friends was absolutely nourishing and helped me stir up some stuff. Stuff that needed stirring. Like, gunky stuff glomming to the bottom of the pot stuff. I have notes that include grimy things like envy, like feeling suffocated and trapped. And stuff that I am looking forward to exploring more, like really digging into the meaning of abundance (because, apparently I completely abandoned my centering word and slunk back into the narrow shadow of scarcity).
I'm rockin' in my 40 Days of Transformation with FlyDog -- at least in terms of the yoga/exercise portion. The meditation, meh, not so much. No surprise there. And the journaling I'm totally getting back on the wagon for. I did yoga on my mat that I lugged to Utah - and got to gaze out into the towering snowbanks as I worked my asanas and tested my balance and got a pretty good sweat on.
So I don't feel too much like I have a HUGE climb to get back on track.
It's funny how taking that first step to attempt filling the hole can seem overly daunting, and so we procrastinate and let another day go by without tackling it, so it gets a little bigger...and a little bigger...and we end up ditching the whole thing because it's just too much. It got out'a hand. We could have just rolled up our sleeves for a short while to make up for a little lost effort and gotten back on the smooth path again.
That climb sucks. But yeah, gotta jump back in and suck it up. I'm doing this for a reason. And I'm trusting it will lead me where I want to go.
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